Changes...

"Life's about changes... nothin ever stays the same." I heard that song the other day, it's by Patty Loveless it's called "How can I help you say goodbye" It's so true.

We had court for baby "Matthew," looks like they want to send him to Alabama with his grandpa. I am heart broken, yet happy...it's so confusing to me. I'm glad that he doesn't have the confusion that my other foster kids had when they were visiting their parents. I was certian that Matthew was going to be our forever child, I am really starting to doubt that I'm saspose to be a mom at all. With "Vincent" and "Gracie's" case being up in the air, and now "Matthew" leaving - I don't know what God is thinking....I don't know if we are going to continue with Foster Care... it's very hard on my heart and I seem to cry a lot. Maybe I'm just burnt out or whatever but, I think we can't seem to go on. I just have to enjoy the kids while they are here, they aren't ours anyways - even when we give birth to them right? Where does it say that in the bible? That our children belong to God or something.... I don't know. Anyways please keep our family in your prayers...and hopefully I will be able to do some scrapbooking soon!!