More than a father, more than a friend, our love has no limit, our friendship no end. Although I cannot see you, I known I'm not alone. 'Cause my daddy's always with me, Even though we are apart, I know because you told me, you'll forever be in my heart'. Sometimes when I close my eyes, I see you sitting there in your chair and I climb on your lap and lay my head on your shoulder...and I am a child again.
By: Sherry Lyn Carsten (5-20-08)
Ok gang, I'm really missing my dad. Don't get me wrong, I miss my mom still... but my dad was there every day, my dad was my last connection to my past. With my mom, I feel there was closer, I made peace with her, and I did all I could to keep my promises to her. My dad was a different story, I was very close to my dad even though growing up was hard, once I became an adult and stuff we became closer. Ever since my grandpa died in 1997, I knew that I was left "in charge" of his things, and in the hospital. Well at the end he changed it all to his "friend" who's his ex-girlfriend...and I like her don't get me wrong, but I felt like he didn't trust me or that, well that honor was stolen from me. My dad had lung cancer and it was bad, and his suffering only got worse. I think back to those last couple days at the hospital. I know he loved me, because when I got there on Friday afternoon, I came up to the bed and leaned over and said "Daddy I'm here." and touched his hand and he grabbed my hand and wouldn't let go, even when I tried to sit down, he held on tighter.
Maybe I sould take down his photos and not look at them anymore. Maybe those are reminders....I just miss him so much. I feel like I am an orphan. I really don't have any family left. My grandparents are all gone, my siblings all live too far away, my neices & nephews all have their lives and live all over the place and both my parents are gone. Now I have some aunts and uncles but none that I am close to at all....I just feel all alone (family alone, does that make sense?). Thank God for my husband, his family and my friends... I would be alone then.
Well it's 12:22 am on Thursday and I don't feel like blogging about the blog challenge, so I will say goodbye for now...
Much Love from Michigan,
Sherry Lyn
